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Friday, July 11, 2014

Pray for Ukraine

The conflict between Russia and the Ukraine has many people confused in the USA. The media might not be as fair and objective regarding the situation there. Today the news reported 23 Ukraine Reuters killed in a gun exchange and their have been some bombs as well. Just like a wild fire or other natural disasters in the recent news. People are choosing to leave their homes. Many Pro Russian citizens in the Ukraine are quitting their jobs and moving to Crimea with their families. A two hour wait for a train ticket was the norm today as families wish to leave the conflicted area of Donetsk. The towns and cities along the Russian/ Ukraine boarder are the most unsafe places to be. Stephen Cohen, an American that lived in Russia for a good many years said position of our US military experts is aggravating the violence. The Kiev's position has been destroy the rebellion in the Ukraine by just killing them on the spot. There is little room for negotiating. Cohen (http://jordanrussiacenter.org/news) maintains that Putin’s position, at least until recently—that the entire Ukrainian government is a “neo-fascist junta”—is incorrect. Many members of the ruling coalition and its parliamentary majority are aspiring European-style democrats or moderate nationalists. The conflict gets little air time on our media, and when it does, it seems that the Ukraine soldiers are the “bad kids”. Russia appears to have started this conflict by moving aggressively into the Ukraine and it does appear that the Ukraine militia is trying to defend its boarders. There is widespread trauma for children and families in boarder cities. Trying to relocate to better areas is now the objective as cities become rubble.

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Abraham Hicks: Google Ad Words: Split Enegy vs Clarity

About Split energy?

Today I realize my split energy on several, maybe too many areas, and it is interesting.

I would call myself a strong want-er. Those are Abraham's words. I get ideas all the time. I feel passion about so many possibilities in my life.

I do desire and need more cash flow. Most of us have some split energy around that subject. The subject of money in general can often be loaded with mixed messages.

As an intuitive counselor I help people with clarity. That is the wonderful state of mind where it all comes together and confusion is not in the mix anymore. I help others sort out their split energy. So I am feeling a bit dismal that I have some of that. It feels like the saying: The shoe makers kids are shoeless, and, physician heal thyself. I am able to do this and so it stands to reason I should be able to clear up some things in my own world.

Split energy is inevitable. It does not mean that you are doing anything wrong...but it does indicate that you are sorting and shifting contrast and have some varied beliefs. It is uncomfortable and just like living causes a house to get messy, time must be taken to sort and reorganize. My physical space is messy and my body feels misaligned and I am really going through some manifestation.

Time to get it sorted through.

This all started with the hospitalization of my son and the time I spent at the hospital. I was not doing readings. I was not focused on my livelihood. People would call and I was too distracted to return phone calls and even get back to people. My mind was in a stressed place. My bank account went down and my chores remained undone. I walked into my home and said, it looks like I was on a 3 day drunk. For my personal standards it was really bad.

My brother said, why don't you try ad words by Google. It might send some new people your way. Well, it sounds good but I feel that split energy is the problem. The words for what I do seem fuzzy right now. There are so many things my guides bring through, in spite of my personal state of mind, that I find hard to clarify at this moment.  We, my guides and I seem to zero in on what people have in the personal escrow. That is Abrahamster talk for what are they really wanting to manifest. That is located where in their highest joy zone. They have a dream for themselves. The emotional well being they feel is an indication of how close they are  dovetailing with that dream. If we had no dreams brewing, we might have a sense of detachment from life. I think monks try and do that. Abe says we are here to live life and bang around in it. We are here to experience things and grow from that expansion. We not only are growing personally, we are on the leading edge of creation in general. The Universe benefits from us reaching for new awareness and new ways of being. Sitting in a cave all day and meditating is not usually indicated. In rare cases, a soul will do that. For most of us we desire the co creating that life can offer. 

When the eye beholds a singular vision the soul is full of joy”

I channel what is most needed. My guides seem to prioritize what is truly important and will give my client the most improved state of being. I am in an Ester Hicks like state of showing them who they are. My words are less important than what they feel and see for themselves during a session.

OK...back to defining what I do.

Allow people to realize their clarity and themselves. Improve their Source Connection. Help remove the amnesia of not remembering their true authentic self and demonstrate true connection with those in spirit by seeing post cards of that deceased loved ones life. Heal the gap between the seen and the unseen. Help ease the fear of death, because it is a transition. Help heal grief in showing people that love and relationships continue..albeit in a different way, after the shedding of the physical body.

OK and none of that says that I am a fortune teller...but I do see probable outcomes and probable future events.

My guides will help me. They are saying relax...do something you enjoy and we will bring it to clarity.  I fully trust that they will.  As far as money...it shows up. As far as clients...they just show up when I am ready. I have to be functioning well enough to receive them. I must clean up this space and my head.

That is something a Google ad cannot do. So for now, I might just do some Yoga and listen to music. For those who have a “real” job...sorry to say it. I have to maintain my vibrational integrity. That is my job. It might clear my wobble to have another job too If I can manage it.  I trust that will be revealed.  

This work is harder than it sounds. I am not on my feet all day like the nurses at the hospital. I admire them. I am not doing case management like I used to...but there is an odd parallel. Some readings are a type of social work, counseling, life coaching and motivational speaking rolled into one. It depends on what is needed.

No good hash tags yet, but I have faith, and they will come.

If wanted things don't manifest. You, like me, and like all of us, have split energy on a particular desire. Abe says back out of this and go general.  That means you are trying to hard and being too specific.  Just trust the Universe to show you and be your compass.

Hash tag: I allow harmonized energy around wanted desires and this allows the Universe to bring it into being.

Too long.

Wishing clarity for all of us today.  May it slip in through the crack of least resistance. 

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

Arizona Mental Health's Huge Machine

June 11, 2014

addressed  to Our Arizona Governor... at the AZ State Capitol. 

Dear Janice Brewer,

Regarding the Management of Mental Health in Arizona

Let me introduce myself. I am a counselor in training. I have a year to go prior to taking my test for license and completing the internship requirement. My name is (Angelbell) and I also have had several family members in the mental health system. I face this issue with compassion as well as seeing a need for a sustainable system that really works. I am a fiscal conservative with a heart. I am a professional in the field. Most of all I am a mother with a young adult son hooked up to life support at the hospital after a recent suicide attempt. If there was ever motivation for reaching out and hoping for systemic change... it is now! I will add that against all odds, It looks hopeful that my son is going to recover. We are taking it one day at a time. His father and I are seeking an attorney to possibly help us look into what went terribly wrong.

That is who I am and I am the author of this letter.

I have had a long talk with Izra and Ray Thomas. Ray and I talked months ago as the new RHBA was taking place. The unfortunate thing for us; is that each new RHBA seems to erase the paperwork of the last RHBA. Since our son has been in the system since age 17 there should be reports going back 20 years. Even if those reports were an overview, hitting the highlights, it would be helpful.

This would be helpful in illuminating the life time prevalence of his diagnosis. Recently, my son went before an administrative law judge concerning his social security benefits. Although there are many hospitalizations. It seems that the file was devoid of any significant assessment. During a recent psychotic episode and a subsequent hospitalization, he was court ordered by one judge into treatment and simultaneously another judge decided that he was able to work and mentally stable. That was in April 2014. We have two opposing decisions from Judges who are not mental health professionals but, serve the agenda of different bureaucracies. We are speaking with John McCain's office in an appeal attempt to restore benefits at a time when Z's treatment and ability to continue demands this.

That seems ludicrous to anyone who hears it. It feels like the system has become dichotomous and bi-polar too. The who mental health system seems to be uncoordinated. It seems to be running with many players who are paid well, get good salaries, but it also feels like the families of the patients are doing all the care. I mean all the case management, coordination of services, and just day to day care taking. Unfortunately we don't get a pay check. Others who are detached, are paid. When I say I am a fiscal conservative, I mean we have got a big budget bureaucracy that is not even remotely serving its population or the natural support system of this population, such as family and friends of the seriously mentally ill.

As I have spent 20 years doing my own research beyond my Master's Degree requirements, I look deeply into effective treatment and what works. I was told I might have to pay big money to acquire guardianship for my son. I say why don't we leave out the judges and lawyers and have a team decision. Like the CFT's (Child Family Teams) I used to facilitate, The judge who spends a few moments reading reports and then votes yea or nae, does not know the family or situation as fully as other members of the team. Why are they even necessary? I think the present system is keeping judges and lawyers off the street and gainfully employed, but again, it is not the most compassionate and effective approach. It is not effective as far as best treatment and practice and it is not saving our tax payer dollars very well. We are really spinning our wheels, our time and our dime. And sadly our discarded mental health patients sleep on the streets.

Does not seem to be working well. The prison system, really benefits. I think members of our present legislation have bought stock in that? Rumor has it. Our jails are treating a greater number of the mentally ill. If only that were truly effective. It is certainly not. It is unconscionable.

Most of my frustration is with the crisis treatment centers and the hospitalizations. I was telling Izra Loring one of my stories and he was amazed. He thought it worked much differently. But before I tell that story. The trillion dollar pharmaceutical industry is on the fast tract to getting most of the allocated funding for the mentally ill.

I hate to say it... but those disenfranchised mental health patients are supporting so many well meaning agencies and industries. But...they suffer greatly when there are actually better alternatives than medication many times. Our RHBA's might not be fully exploring those options. I have found much researched evidence that nutrition and vitamin/mineral therapies are out performing medications. Many of the psych medications sedate or try to manage the symptoms. Some are helpful short term. The long term effects are very damaging to the brain and nervous system. And those medications are so expensive. Z's new non title 19 AHCCCS will not even cover the ones that cost several hundreds of dollars a month.

Well no wonder we have such a problem...a large part of the money is serving the psychiatrist or nurse practitioners and the toxic medications that don't cure but might help to some extent. Z's needs them right now due to the worsening of his condition. Alternatives don't seem to be reachable now. I am hopeful that in the future our system will look at more gentle yet powerful and effective alternatives. And the best part is...they are much less expensive.

Again the mental health budget is serving some people, unfortunately not those suffering with mental illness.

My son's case manager, sat with me for hours waiting for Z's turn in the court room. She said sometimes it takes all day...and this is required for court ordered treatment.  He felt his medication was not working for him very well and he stopped them suddenly. That is not the way to come off medication. A slow titration is needed.  I suppose that forcing him to take medication is important right now as long as we have the right ones. And they are helping him. The case manager could not bring her lap top or cell phone into the court room waiting area. I watched as a bus pulled up transporting my son in restraints into the waiting room for patients. This court room necessity is costing a bundle of money and works well for the judges. It is enormously inconvenient for all others in the picture. The case manger sometimes spends all day there several times a week as she works with 40 cases. I asked about a teleprompter, type of court system set up in the out patient clinics and in patient hospitals? That might shave off thousands of dollars and free up the case mangers to really work with the needs of clients.

My son complains that hospital stays are like prison. Very boring and non therapeutic. They were not able to even go outside to hear the birds chirp and sing,  or see trees and blue sky. That would make me more depressed than ever and if someone is already depressed it is not healthy. It is very confining for patients. They are not always treated very well by staff. It is very de-humanizing. And yet, my son needed to be there.  My son and I have talked about what a safe environment, that is kinder, would look like and how that could be achieved. If a poll were taken during the discharge...or afterword's I wonder if more opinions could be gathered.

I wont even start talking about the UPC as I could write a book.  There are no beds at UPC and people sit in chairs for days waiting for placement.  

If there is a steering committee regarding how to help the mental health system work in a better coordinated ...that time is now.

And I would love to be there in any capacity to weigh in on needed change.

A concerned mom.

PS some personal info redacted for this post


Tuesday, May 27, 2014

Be Attitudes and Abraham Hicks

From Jesus's Sermon on the Mount as reported via Matthew and Luke

Blessed Are:

The poor for theirs is the kingdom of Heaven

Those who mourn for they will be comforted

The meek for they will inherit the earth

Those who hunger and thirst, they will be filled

The merciful, for they will be shown mercy

The pure of heart: for they will see God

The Peacemakers, for they will be called the children of God

Those who are persecuted for righteousness sake...theirs is the kingdom of heaven

And why is this parable powerful? I think I might be on to something here!

There are so many versions of the be-attitudes and many interpretations as well.

If I see this in light of the Abraham Teachings, it becomes very powerful in the universal law.

Step one is in the asking. If someone is poor physically or spiritually;... they are asking,.. and it will be given. Conversely if someone is very rich, and all their worldly wants are provided, they are not asking and they are not going to get there if they don't ask.

asking has unbelievable power. Think about that for a second. If we are so "small and insignificant" how can it be that our ASKING summons the POWER THAT CREATED WORLDS?

Believing and Allowing are next. Ask and know that it is DONE! Say thank you God, for it has been done, I have sought the Kingdom of God and asked this: So Above, So Below. I have asked manifestation that brings brilliance, hope and beauty. I have asked to receive the gift of writing and communication. I have asked to perceive and receive. In the Lord's prayer we ask to not go down the rabbit hole of delusion, and deception.  Interesting in light of the polarity.  The contrast is always present.  Lead us not into it, but we need not invite it. 

When I was sick, I prayed to be well. When there was violence,... I prayed for peace. When my parents fought, I would get sick with asthma, in the hospital there were powerful beings with me.  Little did I know my heartfelt asking could change my world. Little did I know that I create(with the Blessing of the Universe) my reality. I could have never known that God delights in my creations and they are Celebrated in the Many Mansions of God.  Blessed is she/is who sees that.

Meekly, I take over the world by melting hearts and loving. Swords and bombs can never do that. And truly my pen is mightier than any weapon.

Blessed, Blessed am I.  We all are blessed.  Just Ask and then open your heart. 

Radical, Magical, Time Management: Abraham-Hicks Style

Her Majesty's Time

New Way to Allow More Time Management (Abe-Hicks Style)

We all know linear time is a joke?  How people and events dovetail eludes us. But we try to be "on time" and show up.

This concept is new to me and yet...in the past this has happened many times, and with some criticism from the peanut gallery. More on this...later.

There have been times I say to people, I just don't have time. There are times I bite off more than I can comfortably chew and I start to feel overwhelmed, tense and stressed out.

There are times I just plain procrastinate. I organize time to study or clean my often messy bedroom and yet, other things just grab me and I get derailed.

Time management is a huge issue in our world today. Neale Walsch says just showing up is more than half the battle. For the most part, I really try to show up. There is a bit more to this story (at least for me). Abraham states that one person connected to their Source Energy is more powerful than thousands who are not. Imagine showing up, connected and fully present, because that energy can change the outcome of things.

Imagine showing up at a board meeting fully plugged in? I find that the plugged in part has little to do with me personally. I just surrender to the situation. That seems like the easy way out, but actually no, something nothing short of a miracle often happens. For example you are on a steering committee and there are big personalities, and they seem to dominate with their vision and intentions, I get frustrated because I am not being "heard". That shows that I have my ideas and ego just as much present. Recently, I learned to assess the players, remove myself from this frantic energy, balance and ask for connection. I simply ask and allow. There is no force with this. And I'll be a monkey's uncle if it doesn't really happen. I feel quiet and at peace instead of "in pieces". All of a sudden someone asks me, "Nancy, what do you think?" Like a John Travolta devotee, when offered the stage...TAKE THE STAGE! That is what made John famous. I am surprised what comes out of my mouth and I am personally amazed at the confidence with which I say it. I remember being on the church board years ago and feeling "butt hurt" about not being heard. There is this young women who was not validated for her good ideas and abilities...long ago. Her family did not really "get" her. Yip, that was me. I don't have to play that part anymore. I am fully validated by the Universe.

Ok that is the experience of showing up and being inspired before you speak or act. That is HIGHLY RECOMMENDED. This is very different than the leadership we normally experience. The powerful fast talkers seem to prevail and prevail by steam rolling over others. That is hardly what I call success. If I have to steam roll over someone, well, I just lost the game.

But back to time management...that is slightly different but oddly similar.

Put everything on the back burner...yes even appointments. Everything. This is not the way the business world works. Trains run on time. It is a huge leap of faith and almost counter intuitive to work on the Universal Timing. I am not always allowing for this. It is the most rewarding practice and yet the one that I seem most resistant too. When I lived on the Navajo Reservation in Chinle, we called this living on reservation time. Clocks did not rule the day. The Native Americans are so plugged into a different type of flow of time and things just line up as they should. When some of my black friends used to ask, "hey, Nancy what time is it?" I would look at my watch and they would laugh. That was not what they wanted to know. What time is it now...it is time to get in synch with the Greater Timing. We all have biological clocks, astrological clocks, circadian clocks, and rhythms all around us. A great example is the people who were late to work the day of 9/11. One lady said, It was as if the Universe was using tricks to make me late and miss my train to the down town area where the Trade Center was. The world will criticize being late, and not showing up...but...sometimes...it is exactly the right thing.

What about when you make a promise? Try to keep them of course. Try to comply in this world but I will tell you this. There is a higher authority. The first thing in my Day Planner is: Did I sit with the POWER, did I LINE UP, did I align with GOD, Did I make the Kingdom of God, "hallowed" in the way I put all other actions on the back burner? I will know by the healthy happy way I feel if I did. Did I ask the Universal Manager to help me order my day?

The Universe will help you accomplish so much more than you possible could using your own known ways. Did you ever have a day where everything flowed and it was like you found extra hours in your day, and everything happened easily and succinctly? That is when you are surfing with the Universal Manager.

I do use my day planner...after I have lined up and become inspired I write things down with question marks. And phrases like I prefer to do this...and help me do this because I really don't want to do this. The Universe makes everything joyful.




Monday, May 5, 2014

Cinco de Mayo.Celebrate Each Day the Abraham Way!

There is a place where someone has almost tagged each calendar day as a Holiday.  I looked up my birthday and it is designated as National Camera Day.  I think that is lovely but not exciting to me.

What about a day called "Random Acts of Kindness Day?"  Cool enough.

Lately, there have been some difficult days for me, emotionally and physically.  I imagine calling that day, "I survived it" day.  I think sometimes that is enough.  Take a little Victory Lap around the house and say...don't know why it was a crappy day, it is over, I will let it go...tomorrow will seem brighter.

Allow.  It is often hard to understand the concept of allowing.  I once heard someone describe it this way:

There is a man walking a tight rope a story up from the ground.  A lovely dove flies by and he tries to touch it, almost loosing his balance.  Then a raven flies close to him and he almost loses his balance pushing it away! The balance lies in accepting the gift and experience that comes toward you without losing your balance.  We hold on or try to push things away.

What would I call today?  I think I would call it Amazing Grace Day!  Many things had the potential to go all wrong.  I did some segment intending this AM.  Then someone I know and love called me an "asshole".  I could have let that settle in and take over my emotional state.  I just walked outside.  I took a 10 minute walk.  I remember what Abraham Hicks said about the behavior of others.  The anger and criticize of others 99% of the time is not even about you...it is about them.  It is a private war within of discontent and frustration.  You can seldom change someones perspective in the moment they are most upset, pinched off and out of balance.  There might be a healing conversation later when they are in a better and more receptive state. 

Amazing Grace is so perfect.  I went on to accomplish some goals and at the moment feel pretty good about myself. 

I think I will think of some more really good ways to celebrate and tag my days.  They all matter to me.

PS.  This same loved one threw away my lap top.  He is having a hard time.  I am missing blogging so much and it is sheer therapy.  I found a way. 

I can celebrate "I get to Friggin Blog Day"  no matter what. 

Sunday, March 30, 2014

ASMR and the Importance of Non Sexual Pleasure

Non Sexual Pleasure, ASMR and Well-being

I was going to call this the best kept female secret.  I briefly thought of calling it Vagina Speak.  Much too brash and loud. Vagina's don't talk...so a name like Vagina Monologues turns me the other way.  It is too blatant and to out there for real female discussion.  If we were going to have one of those girl talks among best friends, we would begin speaking euphemistically of our personal discoveries.  We would speak with high respect of the magic that comes with sexual exploration.  If the discussion was done with the right decorum, I don't think blushing or shame would prevent us from telling our secrets.  I believe these discussions are held sacred among women and for a very good reason.  Abuse, control. manipulation of women and their bodies, is historically what occurs.  I think there is ample documentation of that.  

Is there female manipulation of men? Oh, of course.  John the Baptist died due to that.  It is a pretty strong hate and revenge that would lead a mother to trade her daughters virginity for the head of someone.  It happens.  Females who learn what triggers males are certainly at an advantage and vice verse.

There is no manual or how to book that really tells the story holistically.  True sexual education is not about our plumbing.  Masters and Johnson's novel studies, were the tip of the iceberg.  How wonderful (the Masters and Johnson research) to debunk the myths of thousands of years.  I am so proud of these researchers because they, like Freud, were pioneers into a much needed area of understanding.  This has been so taboo and it so needs to be treated differently, honestly, and with total respect for something that is a gift of life and bonding.  We will learn more about our anatomy, reactions and physiology....


The hitch is this:  The non sexual acquisition of pleasure.  This is where the medical model, science, religion, and history all collide.  We have been trained away from most types of pleasure by the edicts  of religion and moral authorities.  Quite sadly too.  ( I am convinced that humans have been brainwashed for the millennium to be servants to others) Sure the two of the ¨deadly sins¨ are gluttony, and lust. They occur in an imbalance, and part of that is the closeted treatment of what would really be good for us. Watch a kid make mud pies...too bad we grow up.

The sexual hormones in humans are too prominent to ignore and thus our survival as a species is insured. I believe some would call the non sexual pleasure between humans ¨foreplay¨.  Well, it can be that.  But I decided to make a somewhat bullet-ed list of human contact pleasure that is not sexual and the goal is not delayed orgasm.  I remember stepping in the shower with my six month old...water not as hot as usual and having the best time with bubbles and laughter.  In fact I did everything wrong as a Mom.  I breastfed in bed with my newborn and fell asleep with him in my queen size bed.  It would have been impossible to roll over on him...every subconscious part of me knew that he was there.  Even in a coma I would not have accidentally squished him.  We started showering together up until about age two.  I probably have some taboo about him getting older and maybe that is good? (too much hysteria about all that incest stuff) It could never happen. That is such a sick symptom of being estranged from our true bonds and humanness. What ugly thoughts we think sometimes.

 As a Mom I found it hard to find the time alone to take long, luxurious baths, and that is one of my little pleasures.  Showing with an infant is a very practical way to get clean and it was a bonding experience as well.  Bathing works well too.  Going on walks and smelling leaves and flowers is a marvelous discovery with little ones too.  I remember nature walks with my father as being some of the best quality time when I was little.  He made time for me, and it was not hurried or cut off.  So, I am offering a list of non sexual pleasures.

Why?  Without this part I don't think true intimacy even begins to happen.  I think we remain balled up and living with stress and isolation and that is contrary to our emotional well being.  It is a great heyday for the pharmaceutical industry.  They continue to sell ¨happy¨ pills and make trillions of dollars.  Maybe these simple human well being techniques need to be closeted to allow the mega rich to stay rich?  Oh, Good Grief...no.  It is a great non sexual pleasure of mine to write...and share...and care.  For that is human to the core of us.  Our core is peaceful and loving...and well we might be trained in soldiering...I think that might be the agenda of snakes.

Pleasure of a non sexual type should be encouraged.

mutual massage,  brushing hair,  bathing, feeding each other, finger painting, ASMR on You Tube, art and sculpture, grooming each other, music, creating music together, listening to music together,
 friendly contact sports, hugging, singing together, face to face conversation,  encouraging laughter, or joke telling, sightseeing as a group, story telling around a camp fire, water play, water slides, snow play, sledding,  exploring aromas or aroma therapy.  Nature walks for discovery of taste, texture and smells.  Bring all the senses on board.  tickling, velvet, silk pajamas, bouncing, sun bathing, back scratching, smearing pudding on your face….LOL.  

There are dozens of feelings and experiences not included here.  It is a long and growing list.

I started my own little book just about my pleasure discoveries.  And guys, stop being so macho, and definitely get into your feeling side.  You will live longer and love better.

Oh and humor helps too.