Tuesday, May 26, 2015
As a psychic, many of my readings deal with painful break ups. These are not my personal favorites. It seems like about 50 % of the break ups are not repairable. Some situations are hopeful and old flames do return and the couple will be stronger for this separation.
The harder question might be why is that? That seems to be shrouded in great mystery. It is difficult to tell a client that it really is over and they should move on. In fact I have learned not to be gentle when saying Move On! You are wasting tears and time by hanging on like this.
The reason I cannot tip toe around is this: The client will not understand or hear it. I had a very pretty lady come to me 5 times with the same question, will he return to me? This couple had a roller coaster romance and had broken up and rejoined many times. It was very hard to hear that this guy would not drop back into her life. She was so fragile and I was being kind and trying to say get out there and find yourself again. Finally she realized from a phone call that it really was over. He had found someone new and they were moving in together after a year. She asked him; "what is different about her from me?" The answer was emotional stability. My client had a problem with binge drinking and a difficult childhood. The new girl friend was not physically prettier but overall emotionally more stable. In fact I saw photographs and they could be sisters. They looked remarkably alike. The new girlfriend was a happy stress-free person and loved her job. My client finally got it. She was pretty upset and called to say, "why didn't you tell me?" I said, "I did tell you!" I kept saying go on with you life. She was so attached to the hope that he would come back that she could not hear my subtle messages. I learned that you cannot be nice in this way. It is hard to hear and it is unwelcome news and it makes me sad to be that sort of messenger. Often times the person hearing it will not pay me. Very few psychics are willing to take that chance and they will not ever tell the truth on this. That makes it really hard for me as well. Many of these clients have called dozens of psychics. They will say, all the other psychics say he is coming back. The majority of my clients are women. It could be a guy and I have a men who have gone through tough breaks ups. One guys was hopelessly in love with a married women. I felt that she was not being entirely honest with him. Honesty is very important when it comes to the human heart. It is just inherent that we do not manipulate the emotions of others to serve our own agenda. I see that quite often.
The fact that other psychics are not willing to bare disheartening news, makes it that much worse for me. As my one client put it, "I can't believe all those lying psychics out there." She put me in that same boat too (ouch). We all got lumped together because I don't think she could remember who said what and when. Integrity is so important and being a psychic is not a cake walk and it won't make you rich (usually) Sylvia Brown being an exception.
So, what makes me sure that something will or will not work out? I either get a really warm wonderful feeling when they tell me the name of this love interest or not. If they say his name and my stomach turns into a knot, I know it is over. It is that simple. I read tarot cards and usually they say the same thing as my stomach. I sense energy and I pick up that radio station that tells me what is going to happen. I don't totally understand it myself, but I trust it. It has been unfailing. People return after many months or even a year later and validate what I said. Those relationship readings are probably my strong suit, but I wish it was career or travel plans. I don't like the emotional fall out of having to tell the truth. In the long one the client is much happier. I want to say "your loss is your gain". It is always true. Life will bring you what you really desire when you let go of something taking up room in your head and your life that is no longer good for you.
Sometimes the female is the one who is getting ready to leave and she might not even know it yet. Several times I have done a reading for a married woman only to see a side romance going on. There is no judgment as to right or wrong because each situation is unique. Sometimes I see a decision needs to be made if it continues. That is hard when kids are involved. One mother of three had an extra marital affair going on for 5 years with a neighbor. Both couples would recreate together. I asked her if her husband knew about this? She said no, I asked how he would feel if he knew? She was not sure. I also saw her husband as a really devout husband and a good father. In my mind I saw one of her children seeing this other relationship going on. They suspected it and in time it would be found out. It would affect the whole family at that point. Always there is a point to really take a second look at our actions and make choices. Relationships are going to ask for personal growth every time.
Many years ago a lady came to me stating that her husband just vanished for several months. She wondered if he was alright and filed a missing person report. They had a child together and she felt that he would at least contact the child. I felt like he was alive and with someone in a romantic way in California. I saw a very attractive brunette with him. My client was a beautiful blond and slender enough to be a fashion model. All of a sudden she knew who I was talking about. It was like lightening hit her and it all made sense. She told me that other psychics said he would return and they would be a family again. I said no, he will not return and if he does show up, it will be to collect some of his belongings. She was furious and left in a huff. I heard from her a few months later and she was in the middle of a very ugly divorce.
There is nothing harder to hear than "its over" or if you are smart it should be over. It is almost impossible to believe and it is hard to let go of the hope that this person they love will be back. It seems like there would have been some warning signs along the way.
I think there probably were. The way some of these women reacted to me during the unfolding of the truth was not good. That told me that the guy would not want to go there and open up and be totally honest. The anger, rage, denial, and outburst, were almost too much for me. I can understand why the man would want to sneak away without much discussion. Sometimes break ups trigger the worst in people. They bring a cascade of hurtful emotions like: Childhood abandonments, lack of self-worth, and feelings of betrayal and many other emotional torments. It is not just the current rejection it might be lots of unfinished business.
That is why it is vital to really deal with all these issues before another relationship is formed. Unfortunately, some of these same clients were back asking about new boyfriends. I would say, oh my, you have not really found your land legs yet and where did you leave yourself behind? Replacing a lover seldom takes the sting out of the leaving. Only time takes it away. It can be time well spent or time wasted. I suggest that people go back to school, get involved in a project or hobby they are passionate about, or look up old friends and go on a road trip visiting them all. Embark on an adventure. The biggest goal is to reclaim yourself. The most important self-work you will ever do is to heal and feel worthwhile again. The world at large and everyone surrounding you will also benefit. You will be a blessing to your own life and to others for standing up to this loss and winning. Just wash that man right out of your hair and go on.
There are always red flags when a relationship is about to end. I could usually tell when my partner and I were drifting apart. I could also tell if it was a big thing or a little thing. I seemed to know if it was something that could be fixed or not. I was able to look at this knowledge and create plan B for myself. It is hard to say if that is because I am psychic or just willing to look the truth in the eye? I don't like those sort of surprises. I could see the writing on the wall and made some other plans. It wasn't easy but it was empowering. There might have been another way to deal with it. At the time, it did not appear that there was.
That brings me to the last generation. My mother was married four times. That was the multiple marriage and blended family generation. Now you see pre-nuptials and parenting partnerships. Just when gay marriage is being legalized you see many hetero couples not wanting it at all. The only problem is when children come on board. There will need to be what I call a parent partnership contract. That might need to be discussed ahead of time. Some of these troubled break ups are the same ones that seem to use children as tools of torture as well. It is always good to include family and extended family as a continued resource for your children. Allow for this discussion to happen any time there seems to be an eminent break up. What will this look like for our kids? For me and my ex it was very good for a while. He lived a few blocks away and my children did not seem too ravaged by our separation. We were able to even plan to spend part of holidays together for the sake of extended family. Then the unthinkable happened. My ex moved clear across the country following a marriage to someone from Connecticut. We are in Arizona. That is a lot of miles. My children then began to have some issues in school and at home. It was not the divorce itself but the absence of the other parent that was hard to bare. If possible put that in a contract, the other parent must be accessible for all the little things that happen. It should not look like just seeing the other parent three weeks out of the summer. It isn't the best for kids.
Anyway we are all reaching a new level of understanding about partnerships and what will end them. Not all involvements will last forever. The ones that do seem to have personal freedom and trust built in. Each person must be able to expand and grow.
Happiness cannot be the sole responsibility of the person you marry or partner with. It must be something each person finds for themselves.
These are my discoveries and there are many more things to look at but this is why I almost don't want to do a reading for someone when I know it is about a break up. It is a real downer.
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Monday, May 11, 2015
2008 Sitka Alaska
We were traveling up the west coastal waters of Canada on our way to the breath taking shores of pine clad Alaskan mountains. I was on sensory overload. It was so beautiful I would clasp my heart and say to myself, "take this all in, breathe it in, feel it in, so you can always remember how this felt and looked and smelled. I was in the process of absorbing all the beauty I possibly could in one week. I was also journaling all I could from the lectures Neale would present on board ship. The following is a discussion about getting in touch with our own soul and together with God receiving the answers we need.
At nine in the morning we met in the Crow's Nest. We are on the upper most deck enclosed by huge glass windows that keep out the chill in the ocean air. Since we are at the rear or aft of the ship, we watch the wake the ship is leaving and see the vast expanse of blue ocean behind us. Every once in a while we are greeted with the presence of sea gulls circling the cloudless blue sky. I am feeling like a spoiled brat. I found out that room service was included in the deal I paid for. I had coffee and an omelet delivered to my room. I feel like I am in a dream but I keep telling myself it is all very real.
Neale asked us to gather in a semi circle and not a wide one. There are two roles of us in half circles. He explains that he broke his neck in an auto accident prior to writing his best selling "Conversations with God" novels. He mentions that it is important that he be able to maintain eye contact with everyone without twisting his neck too much. We all oblige and fit into his line of vision.
Neale is 60 something years old and has a sparkle in his blue eyes. His white hair is a bit long. He has a full white beard that makes him look like a sophisticated Moses figure sitting in jeans and a royal blue shirt directly in front of us. He tells us some jokes. It loosens the mood and then he begins with his discussion on the "ceiving" of things. He explains that God is constantly talking to us if we will listen.
Many times God gives us great ideas that we toss out or censure. I am taking notes and asking questions. One year later I read my short hand and realize I must fill in some of this discussion from memory. So the discussion goes something like this:
When we ask for help, God will bestow upon the mind certain "ceivings". This is not a true word but our mind conceives something that God put into the subconscious. Under ideal circumstances, we hope it will plant itself and grow, for this is "ceiving" at its best. However, many ceivings will be like seeds cast into the thorns. These seeds, or creative conceptions, will be trampled by our own limited perception. Neale explained, "we ceive, perceive and then deceive". Our own inner censor will come from our conscious mind and tell us things like "you can't do that", or "you tried something like that before and it didn't work". What just happened? An idea was cast into your mind and it was pure genius and original design. We tossed it out before it had a chance. Then if we should share our idea with others, those others become the birds that eat all our seeds or great ideas. The peanut gallery is full of nay sayers that will trample your dreams underfoot or eat them for breakfast. The idea is to let the seeds of God fall onto fertile ground and take root.
Neale asked us to write down an issue we were having in our personal lives. Tomorrow we will collectively discuss what we can "ceive". Give yourself time to meditate and cultivate the receptive part of one's mind. Carry your question with you into the rest of this day and watch for subtle messages. You might engage in a conversation with a stranger on board ship and they will gift you with an idea or you might turn to the right page of a book and see an answer.
Sometimes we will flip on a radio station and hear a song that seems to sing to us our answer. And then we will tell ourselves, oh, that was nothing, that song is on the airwaves for everyone and I am acting like it was just for me. Well, maybe it was just for you. Maybe God was singing a love song to anyone who would listen. When you received it in your heart at the perfect moment, then it was just for you.
Neale cautioned us about caring for our soul more than any other aspect. Most of us get caught up in our day to day worlds. We busy ourselves with many mundane things. If you give some time to each day to meditate and ask questions of God your life will start to unfold in untold ways. God wants to communicate with us, but, we give that precious little time. We might spend a half hour on the phone with a creditor, and then be grumpy and upset for the next half hour. We have aches and pains, so we spend two hours waiting to see a doctor. We come home with a prescription that makes us drowsy and out of sorts so we will just go to bed early. Even our best friend calls and we can't speak to her/him right now. Neale cautioned us about putting the "kingdom of God first" everyday. That "kingdom" or sacred realm is within our own soul. Neale said that when we have our SOUL as our priority, or the apex of our own pyramid, all else will be put into right order. Our bodies will repair themselves and take on new life and our Mind will function on the high level it was meant to. Our mind is not the same as our brain. The brain functions much like a computer and helps us perceive and navigate our physical world.
God will reach us and gift us with good ideas and solutions to any crisis or problem. That gift cannot take hold in a sea of anxiety and worry. You must calm your mind and have faith. I am getting in the habit of asking for a solution and then immediately saying "thank you God". My faith is now growing to the point that I know I will get my answer. I don't always know who will deliver it but I know "it is in the mail. I might be just doing the dishes and out of the blue the solutions to my dilemma plops into my head. I don't argue with it. Even if it seems unlikely, I write it down. I water it a little with gratitude and love. In a short time I have a plan that I can really carry out. I usually don't share my information until I have the result or conclusion manifest. Other people can destroy a fragile dream. This is between you and God so find a warm sunny spot to let it grow and become a miracle.
At the end of any Neale directed lecture, he would turn to us and ask, "Are you folks getting your money's worth"? It is odd because my negative parts would say "wow I have spent an enormous amount of money for me on this trip". My practical side would chime in with "you should have put this money in a CD or IRA for retirement." I would just grab my heart and say, no, no, no. This trip is worth a million trillion dollars to my soul. I am sure that this money will have many spiritual unfoldings in the future. No savings account can give my heart, life and soul these types of returns.
So there it is. It makes it all the sweeter to share this journey with all of you. And may all your dreams have a fertile place to plant themselves and grow.
Sunday, May 10, 2015
Who is really the man behind the curtain? It might not be a human being at all. Sounds absolutely ridiculous to most people until one of two things happen. They are abducted by the military, or they are abducted by the aliens.
If you are lucky enough to not fall into either one of those two boxes; there is a third box: Social Services. I fall into that box. These are the therapist, counselors, teachers, and social workers who will very often hear stories from children about being forced to participate in rituals. They call them Satanic Rituals or cult rituals. They witness baby murder or infanticide. They are forced to participate in sexual acts. What makes this horrible is that many of these rituals are inviting some of the most prominent leaders in the community. Those who try to report or expose often meet with an unfortunate accident.
Instead of posting links; I just suggest going to YouTube and use that search bar and the following names:
Camelot Interview with Carry Cassidy and Rothschild Daughter
Stewart Swerdlow/Reptilians and Mind Control
Arizona Wilder/ Deceived No More
My biggest question as a social worker was: Why? I felt there were traumatized children and that they were telling the truth. Many of these kids are forced to redact their story.
Hang on to Your Seat for the Why Part.
There are the reasons for doing this that the cult believes, that is what the more human or half human hybrids believe. There is a more unfathomable version of what the aliens have disclosed to certain insiders. And if any of this is true and that means even 1% of it, we need to stand up and take notice. There is a defense. That is knowing your rights as a human, being strong enough to stand your ground, know what human values you most cherish and highlight those.
Most victims are seduced by fuzzy boundaries and a loss of personal power. Most babies are taken from 3rd world countries, bought from "bad" people running orphanages. Children often have no choice and parents arrange for them to be victims. Why would any parent ever do that? They believe it fractures the mind and allows the reptilian part of them to emerge over the human part. The reptilian part is more logical, more like Spock. It is survival based thinking. Also in many ways they now are initiated into this cult. Many children will not be able to interact with "normies" out there after this horrible act occurs. Children are often tortured, raped, forced to watch the other children who are being harmed as well. They become rather submissive and less able to think for themselves. As Swerdlow mentioned; these fractured minds become suggestible. They might be asked to murder or do other types of unethical acts later.
And why is the government so complacent? That is a mile long story and I suggest Googling Ted Gunderson, FBI, murdered for his investigation into the Satanic Cults operating with high level government officials involved. This is sad to watch the USA slowly loose its priceless FREEDOMS that so many people died for. It was a long hard fight, to then have it swept away with the Patriot Act.
I also suggest that everyone get a copy of Methodical Illuision by Rebekah Roth. I just got my copy in the mail. If you Google that name there are plenty of interviews with her. She is a brave person to write an airline industries insider account of what happened on 9/11. Warning: It will make you sick at heart and you will realize several things. The think I hope we all realize is this: Let the real USA citizens stand up and say, we did not do any of this. Our government has been usurped and the real bosses might not be able to un hide themselves.
What I have heard from those who seem to speak with Reptilian (five star military generals have be witnessed in trade agreements) aliens is this: We are many things for them. They harvest us in different ways. We are advancing now and close to liberation. They will be stuck underground on earth and cannot escape until they evolve like we are. The chickens are flying the coup. Human blood is like a drug for them. It holds hormones that they do not produce. They are amused by human emotions and especially like "war games" and fear. Humans provide much of the things they need and cannot produce for themselves.
Reptilians are very psychic and can read us. They are fast and will know what you are going to do milliseconds before you do it. They feel superior to humans. They do not understand human connectedness, love, bonding and family. We are able to connect with our Higher Selves in a way they have lost. We have a divine connection and with that is the ability to create and improve our lives. And they have been able to deceive and manipulate us very easily. They can mentally control humans pretty well. Not always. Anytime someone behaves in a brave altruistic way, it really foils a plan. By not engaging in anger and violence and even offering co-existence, we foil reptilian agendas.
First I guess people must believe they are here. I say look at the way our world is going? Humans will sell out other humans for money and power. Not all of us, but, there are those who have lost their way. Most people will be more effected by the non human friendly agendas than actually seeing a reptilian in an up close personal way. It is so important to support people who do experience this. Very often they are ridiculed and their life becomes undone. If someone tells you their story, please be open minded.
Jesus said: The meek will inherit the earth. I believe that is true. In the end it will be our kindness not our inferior weapons that win the day. I do not recommend fighting the aliens in any sort of violent way.
I must add one other most important thing. Not all reptilians are bad guys. There are groups now trying to run interference and more in line with humans. They are the rebels and cannot be too obvious.
I think in the future it will not always be obvious who the good guys and bad guys are.
There is lots here to research and digest. Most of the videos are better than any science fiction movie out there. So enjoy the exploration.