Now I am starting to even smile a little. This time it is a smile that is bubbling up like helium from my inner soul. In the past managing my emotions was like herding cats. There was some control but mostly I chose to avoid bad memories. This time it feels like I fenced them in with a great deal of kindness and acceptance. I even can go as far as to say these experiences have deepened me. Bad experiences don't need to beat me up if I can just take them at their temporary value and let them go. Without trying too hard I did become that observer and I had another Bigger Observer with me. Instead of multiple viewpoints we all became one. I am certainly going to try this again because it was a successful fix for my angst. Life is messy business sometimes. It is not a paint by numbers project. It is like this; don't do your own dentistry, plumbing or brain surgery. You don't have to be the expert with the up to date manual. Just Call Out 1 800 God Help. It sure saved my butt today.